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Retrograde

by Onze

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are we bound to fail? we know nothing but to scream and spend our nights awoken - we're far from home is it born to fade? our future's a blur, and at our best we sure are smaller than right before is it hard to face? we know better than to fear some maze we will sort this out, you and i both
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celebration 04:25
i have seen flashlights in between shutters and the night was sharp and full of thunders so i'm waiting for something to happen, for i don't know how to chose and i might have sensed a turning point, well it shouldn't be so crude still i've got this sureness in me: i ride downhill i do feel the loneliness in me, i can't stand still yet i'm back on top of my bike - i know i've drank way too much every night feels like a farewell party... whose arms are next to clutch? as long as we've got things to celebrate, i shouldn't behave as such... still i reckon the sadness in me - i won't stand still let me feed the loneliness in me, i'll ride downhill i have seen flashlights in between shutters i've thought of the moon shining on cutters sailing memories can be tough, i've heard so i'm waiting for something to happen, for i have to decide how to chose and i know how to sense a turning point, i've got so much to lose still i want the warmth in this liquor - it's all downhill how quick can my confidence flicker? i can't stand still so i embrace this melancholy - like a wouldlike therapy let me feed the loneliness in me - i ride downhill
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backwards 03:19
the only direction i'm sure of goes backwards of all the things moored, i can clearly spell one: sensuousness i can't help but dive into your questioning eyes but none of this does even matter when we are walking, while we keep on walking and i know that some day our ways will diverge knives and days to unveil, those times are sharp 'cause our threads are a threat, and our friendship is a web but none of this does even matter, because we are walking, since we are walking towards the bridge, and towards a shop, and against the clock... we shall never stop talking or not, and tying in knots, on exhausted feet, we shall never stop so we are walking, because we are walking, while we are walking, since we keep on walking
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à l'est des grandes dunes... comme l'air est riche ! on s'enivre à même le sable on rêve d'orients, on échafaude des plans sans grain de sable le soir, en roue libre, on crève l'affiche, on s'expose, méconnaissables mais soudain la brume nous enveloppe et consume tout amour propre à la santé, à l'amour comme au destin, on trinque aux amitiés sans lendemain vois comme un bref séjour nous isole.. à trop se délivrer, on s'affole car je suis de ceux que l'on tord, je ne vois que phobies et désordre à l'est des grandes dunes à l'est des grandes dunes, on lâche la bride, on accumule les grains de sable nos peurs se dessinent à même le vide, les interstices sont irrespirables alors, de trois fois rien, quelques atomes, tout devient injustifiable soudain, la brume nous enveloppe et couvre nos nuits d'opprobre à la santé, à l'amour comme au destin, on trinque aux amitiés sans lendemain en attendant des mots qu'ils reviennent, on s'offre des horizons à l'arlésienne on confie les clés au hasard, et c'est tout l'édifice qui lézarde vois comme ce bref séjour nous isole, à trop se délivrer on s'affole car je suis de ceux que l'on tord il n'y a que phobies et désordre à l'est des grandes dunes
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feral 02:48
i don't want to talk, i don't need it now, it's just a waste of time no beast in a cage would hold more than this... i cannot rest any time i hope there's a way out we don't always have to shout it's hard to reckon that i have my share when you don't get to the point am i to second such a feral stare? i can't adapt my viewpoint i hope there's a way out we don't always have to shout let's wait for the drought we'll learn how to shatter doubts i'll get to hear you someday, i'll even grab your maydays
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fake cheese 06:19
i wish that i could spend the whole day eating fake cheese with you counting birds and making love is everything we'd do well, truth is, this happened twice and i didn't pay attention perhaps there's an island crowded with effigies where i'm always right on time? some call this an apogee, i can understand why... still i've ruined the momentum i'm amazed by how quickly we can fuck up anything it's easy to tumble i wish that we could spend another weekend in Istanbul we would drink tea and smell tulips at the corner of the Bosphorus well, truth is an argument there would be nice again perhaps we're an island crowded with effigies that's shaking for the first time we're living an apogee, this is remarkable, still beware the momentum i'm amazed by how quickly we can fuck up everything it's easy to tumble
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three years 01:51
i know for sure that this was the last time we ever met three years and i haven't thought about it every day we were warned for long, still no one is prepared for it, really i'd never guessed how close sadness and relief happen to be three years is what it takes to leave behind any certainty i lost my ways, i lost the count... maybe it's fine? here's a new man i've learnt not to bear you any grief about all of this i'd never guessed how close sadness and relief happen to be
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open lies 03:18
here's a thing that i've learnt: my secrets are best kept open all the lies are no good waiting there, at the back of my head... and not at the center of my face here's a thing that i do, when caught at the middle of a crowd: i can speak to some guy, acting like he's my best friend... then i'm always getting bored straight away so... it's a bit hard for me to remember what caused your wrath, what caused your anger well, it's a big deal for me to realize where the truth was and where it hides here's a thing i'm sure about: we're all playing the wrong game - whether we're false or right won't decide the outcome of our fights, for we're all forgetting losers anyway, 'cause we're all forgetting losers anyhow so... it's a bit hard for me to remember what caused your wrath, what caused your anger well, it's a big deal for me to realize where the truth was and where it hides
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how come? 04:12
how come it's so hard to sing "well, i like it"? i woke up late just to see someone angry there's no way out, we're locked in subjectivity we spend our time playing judge and party still i would like to know what i did wrong let's find hideaways where we tell things alright we're having hard times staying positive no matter how late, today there was no compliment and in the end, in our moods there's nothing bright it makes us feel like parasites in a Nick Drake song
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amnesiac 03:01
we're glad right now... there's finally a thing we're good at: we could find a nice way to end two horror weeks i'm full today... everything goes the right way, i can get back to my tasks, as obsessed as i can be but i swear to the sky that i'll be a better man and i'm sure that this time promises will hold tight running circles is how we handle everything... we better enjoy the time spent on top of the hill how hard's a role i wouldn't dare to compose? how hard's the day right next to an earthquake? but i swear to the sky that i'll be a better man and i'm sure that this time promises will hold tight
11.
let's hoist big white sails, let's cover up the streets, hide this stray noise, hide this temple of gray see the words on the wall? they're like maps of my brain... ... whispering paths i shall take, but none i expect and i wait for a sign, and i wait for a word, and i'm scared for a year... aren't you answering now? let's spread out big white sails, let's dress a table i feel hungry now, but i can't eat a thing no matter how you run, i have no patience and i wait for a sign, and i wait for a word, and i'm scared for like ever... aren't you answering now? aren't you answering now? am i really that paranoid?
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unless 03:49
i know it's high time to leave those things behind, prepare for a ride and witness dawn on a train, it won't stop until Spain i've been told a lot about Japan and Caillebotte, Perth, Klimt and the Scotts - i need to meet them all, i won't rest until then... many places to scratch on the wall, i won't rest until dawn i need to walk this trail, a million steps a day, unless i'm setting sail? i could cross an ocean and shore on the Kerguelens, i'm sure that i'll get there, unless i'm somewhere else, planning my next trip, focused on being distracted, jumping from town to ship, one step away from nowhere, i know it's high time to leave those things behind and prepare for a ride
13.
it is time now to call a friend, there must be one amongst the men maybe he's got a cast to spell, maybe she's wise enough to help? now we're facing a deadlock and there's no chalk to draw a door on i know the man's got his problems... still he's someone i'm counting on it is time now to call a friend she might be one to settle south, he might be one i don't know yet i was told by word of mouth that i'm about to become a threat and i've lost control once again, we've spent another night in pain i know the girl's got her problems, still she's someone i'm counting on it is time now to call a friend

about

En bouclant "a last glance", je m'étais promis de ne plus jamais passer autant de temps à écrire, enregistrer et mixer un album.
Mais "backwards" a plus de 5 ans ; la très grande majorité des chansons ont été entamées il y a plus de 3 ans...
"Retrograde" est le témoin de 5 ans de mon existence ; il parle d'espoir et de désirs ; de constance et du souhait de faire changer les choses ; de promesses non tenues, donc, et de retours en arrière.


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J'ai eu, peut-être encore plus cette fois que les précédentes, à coeur de tout faire moi-même, à la maison, avec tous les défauts que ça peut impliquer : la musique, les textes, l'enregistrement, le mixage, l'artwork.
Tout faire soi-même ne veut pas dire tout faire tout seul. De nombreuses personnes m'ont aidé et donné leur avis. Je leur dois mon peu de certitudes sur cet enregistrement.
Voici les noms auxquels j'ai pu penser, de contributions variables et dans un ordre incertain, mais ayant tous copieusement compté dans l'élaboration et la diffusion de ces enregistrements - en cas de plainte, merci de vous adresser à eux :
Thomas G, Robin J, Lucien A, Damien LG, Matthieu Q, Ludovic G, Geoffrey L, Florent M, Julien M, Julien P, Sébastien A, Guillaume N, Yoan C, Florian P, Alexis C, Clément M, Nicolas B, Barthélémy C., Anouck


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released July 4, 2019

While polishing "a last glance", i had promised myself not to spend this much time writing, recording and engineering an album again.
But the song "backwards" is more than 5 years old ; i started gathering most of the songs here about than 3 years ago.
In this respect, "retrograde" is actually a longer road down than "a last glance"..
More than anything else, it is a witness about 5 years of my existence ; talks of hope and desire, constance and wishes to arrange everything, going backwards and promises unfulfilled


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Everything, from the lyrics to the artwork, was written, recorded and engineered by myself
Doing everything on one's own doesn't mean doing everything alone.
Many listeners contributed to provide me with the minimal confidence required to make this record public - see the names above if you're curious about it.

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Onze Lyon, France

I'm Pierre.
I like pop, I like folk, I like ambiant stuff.
I like to spend time alone in my bedroom to record the mixture of pop, folk and ambiant the most reflective of my mood.

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